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right now…i’m using my uncle’s computer in shah alam….yup that’s right…i in shah alam….living with my uncle for awhile before i find a room to rent near my new office…u heard me right…i have resigned my previous job and now my new job in shah alam…seksyen 13 near the stadium melawati….alah…stadium konsert af…it also near to my PLK….so i dont have to travel all the way from kl to shah alam and back again to kl….rm20 per day…that what cost me everyday since i do PLK….now…the fuel price is up (again!)….it could cost more..so the solution is to live here in shah alam….the one thing that i will miss living here is lepaking with my friends at maju during night time….but kl and shah alam not that far just 45 mins away…i still could see them but not like before…not everynight….just the weekend…do i afraid living alone without my family??….well the answer is no…because i used to it…i lived alone in UK…in Hull for about a year when i was just 18….i lived there because i have to finish my a-level….living with those singaporean….ayoum, ados and tan….there were 10 years older than me….they bullied me like hell…but heck i survived that…i think that period was my best time in life…i kept my hair long…my weight was ideal for me…i was the talking point in Hull College because i was the most wanted bachelor…yeahhhhhhhh…that was then….that my golden day like i used to said that was ‘tahun gemilang aku’…..now is different….i’m different….then studying my diploma in perak…sri iskandar…the place that no one want to go…but i choose there instead of shah alam…..why???…because i want to live alone again….now i alone again…here by myself with my rent house soon…cant wait for that….new life…new chapter…but still i miss my mom’s cook….

Last night I had a fantasy-
A fantasy of me and you.
It seemed so incredibly real,
I almost thought it was true.

We were walking along the ocean shore,
And the wind blew against my face.
Slowly you put your arms around me,
Next, I was wrapped in your embrace.

I turned around and looked at you,
My soul got lost in your eyes.
We just stood there by the ocean
Underneath the velvet sky.

You led me to a dock
And there we sat.
We talked and talked,
And giggled and laughed.

Then you just stared at me,
And whispered in my ear.
"I love you..." was that it?
It's something I've longed to hear.

The world felt like it had stopped moving,
And we were all by ourselves.
But suddenly I got dizzy all over
Just as the clock struck twelve.

My body shivered,
And I felt nothing but afraid and fright.
Where am I...? I wondered-
All alone in my room at night.

I wish those moments would go on,
Or maybe even become a part of reality.
Yet, I know that will never happen,
'Cause it is all just a fantasy.

today….i will start my new life…as a part time student….the new chapter of my life…i countinue my studying in Town Planning….people asked me so many time why i didnt do full time…do u have the energy to studying…when u going to go to library….well here are my answers…i want to do part time because i want money to came in not out…that the reason why…the money still came in if i do it part time studying…energy??…i hope i have the energy mentally and physically….i think i can do it…no doubt i can do it…everyone seem to said that …penat …jam….letih….yes i know that…but dont put me down….i could do it…so to all my friends….pray for my successful…hope that i could finish this studying on time….thanks…

yesterday…i finish reading my book…’The Family Ways’ by Tony Pearson…i have read all his books, One for My Baby, Man and Boy, Man and Wife…most of his books are about life…the life we live….he touch many aspects of life….example love, family, sex, pregnancy, divorce, cancer, death, and many more…the way he wrote all those books sounded so real….it makes me wondering is this a fiction or non-fiction story…i read many novels by various authors….Ken Follet is the first author that make me so interest in novel…but after 3 novels from him i started getting bored with his story…so i start to read Jeff. Archer….’Shall I Tell The President?’…is another novel that i read more than 3 times….Jeff. Archer tell a story about a president is going to be assassination in 3 days by a senator and just only one person and the head of FBI know the assassination…and Jeff. Archer use Ed. Keneddy as the president…the brother of JFK…that really interest me….after Archer i started to read John Grisham…at first i thought it was good…i know how the law work…judges, juries, lawyer etc…but after i read about 5 novels i started to get bored….same theme…then he published a book called ‘The Bleaches’…a story about a dying american football coach…at last a different theme but for me the story is very dissapointing…then i try various writer and i saw a cover that so simple…so i bought it and that how started to read Tony Pearson book…the cover of One for My Baby is so simple and u didnt expected that the book is damn good…to Tony Pearson…man… u so good better than the Archer…the best story teller ever…apart from englsih i also read malay novel…yup yup called me jiwang whatsoever…but for me u must balance english and malay…so far the best malay novel is pergilah sepi by fauziah nawi…if u want to start to read malay novel…that the novel u should buy first…

Tony Pearson once wrote in his book…love messed up my heart….hmmm..that sound deep..and that how i feel right now…