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Here i want to write about my course….PLK (Pelajaran Luar Kampus) in english is outside campus study….my course is Town And Regional Planning …….so our class is about 6 pm to 10 pm every monday to thursday….in my first semester my class was around 12 students….4 girls 8 guys….the guys were me, bong (my office colleague), bai, ashmerr, adzley, rahman and aie….the girls pulak were nani, shuk, team and har….some from the local authorities, some working with consultants firm like me, some working with developers and even unemployed….so along the first semester….2 drop out….

then beginning of 2nd semester…..3 drop out….nani is the only girl left in the class…she the one that handle all the boys….i remember we went to site visit in melacca….we all dont know where to put nani….so i decided to asked my uncle a help ask him whether that she can stay in their house for a week…nasib baik ok….so the trip to melacca…because we were doing RSN (Rancangan Struktur Negeri or State Structue Plan) for our studio….abis satu melacca pusing….i bring them along to my kampung in merlimau ….makan ikan bakar…udang greda….hmmmm…best2….

the 3rd semester i think was the breeze one…no hassle..all the lecturers were helpful and the studio was ok….so i got a good grade for it…in my 4th sem…our studio doing this RTD (Rancangan Tempatan Daerah or Local District  Plan) in hulu selangor…the reason we choose hulu selangor because of adzley working in that local authority MDHS…..we thought he going to be helpful but…..well not really….our lecturer tuan syed…mak aii….tension gile….pressure beb….all we did was wrong….we dont know…what is right….itu salah ini salah….presentation every damn week….because we are part time student our studio is a year long…the 5th sem…was tourturing….tn syed nak itu…nak ini….but still with bong around in the studio we still have a good laugh we him….i quote this from him when i show him my report…."we are master of none"….we meaning town planner….we should know everything…the way he said was so funny….huuhuhuh….i remember one time…he was talking about our report then suddenly he stop in the middle of a sentence….i was…apa hal mamat ni…for 10 seconds he stop then he sneeze….then looking at me with a big smile….i cannot hold my laugh…i was guling2 around the class….hahahhaha..tn syed..tn syed….the way he pressured us…was so intense…i even thought i was going to fail my studio….adzley even drop out along the way of sem 5…..tak tahan ngan tn syed….the last day we submit out report he said…..apa apa bau busuk ni…oooo report kamu ni…i was like…hampeh punya mamat….but at least he passed me with good grade….the way he pressured us was like hell…at least he got a good heart…we love u tn syed….muahhahaha

now i in my final sem doing this thesis….my study about the concept of child-friendly neighbourhood from the perspective of children in shah alam…hehhehe..the reason i choose this child-friendly because of the nurin jazlin…how to make our neighbourhood safer for our children to play around without the parents feeling unsafe…i just submit chapter 2….submit this middle march….6 people in my class…one already drop thesis….2 going to drop….make it 3 if bong nak juga….so i the only one standing…bole ke…siap ke…i think i can do it…tak tahan da study….penat….nak cepat abis…finish my study i going to go to a long long vacation a real one….so my friends….doakan kejayaan saya…to graduate on time….doakan saya abis thesis ni…insya allah…i need the strength to finish this…i will mention all ur names in my perhargaan in thesis nanti…..huhuhuhu…..i remember reading this quote in Tony Pearson novel…that struck in my head…the thing that make me going till today….hope it gives u all the inspiration and motivation that u need when thing turn rough in life….peace…

"Never let the hardship of the journey overshadow the glory of the destination"

a’kum semua…..hhhmmm…lame tak tulis blog ni….suddenly i just want to write today….today is 120208….0140am….why not sleeping…still awake….still doing my thesis….yup my thesis…..submit this march but i just finish chapter 2….huhuhu….pressure2….ok here the update of my life….

the first thing…i became an uncle last year in may….yup i shall known as ngah yin….yea yea…mcm kacang….but i like the sound of it…ngah yin….so my nephew name is ajmal naufal…before that my brother now work in sri lanka….in m’sia embassy there…so ajmal is in sri lanka…i remember when ajmal was born….my sis in law kak yani omitted to putrajaya hospital on 8th may….my brother kalut punya pasal from sri lanka called me ask me where is mak abah because he can not reach him…he said that kak yani da masuk wad kat putrajaya….i said i now in putrajaya…just finished a meeting…so i straight to the hospital….kak yani was surprised i was there quick…cepat nye sampai dia baru masuk wad 5 minit….muahahhaha..i told her that  wan (my bro) call ngan kalutnya…..igt da masuk few hours….hhahahah…klakar2…

then deris and kuti pun da dapat baby boy….wan zaim idlan ek…rasenye la….on june 07 i think….so last years i have to attended a few of my cousins wedding….penat la juga…

my study is ok…..i thought i have fail my studio dengan cara tn syed ngajar…asyik sebut kantoi je….hhhuummmm kamu ni…..but still i pass…

my work…hhhhmmm…no thrill….i have no thrill working here now…the thrill is gone….because of the salary???…yup part of it…i just not happy there…i fell very tired to go there…but if i there working i give my full 110% of my effort because of the responsibility that god given to me…kerje kerana tuhan…bukan sebab bos suruh ke apa….i believe in that….but the thrill is gone….i wake up saying to myself….hhhmmm malas nye nak g keje….

bara’ getting marry soon…i’ll be the pengapit again…huhuhuh…kawen la korang….syed pun nak kawen……huuhuhuhu…kawen la korang…..sapa lagi…meh buat hidop aku boring….huhuuhu…sedih2….

other big thing happened in 2007 was….accident…yup i involved in accident…..a lorry not that big….HICOM PERKASA…..less than 1 tonne hit me at the back of my car….hancus belakang kereta aku…..my stomach was hurt….at that time i was late for my spm oral…yup i taken spm last year….kereta da hancur…oral da start….apa lagi panik la….i call my colleagues…i call my uncle which is the nearest to accident…i call my good friends bara and deris….they waited for me while i doing my police report…after that i went to subang parade i watch transformer….yeah more that meet the eyes….fffuhhhhhh…best2…not the accident the movie i mean….the next day my neck is hurt…..sakit gile….so i went to see dr taken an x ray i weared a neck brace for few days….my neck kena whiplash impact on heavy vehicle crashed u from the back while u neck is moving forward and backward really fast….ouuucchhhh….that hurt…..now everytime i stop my car…i look at the rear mirror if i see a hicom perkasa……i put on the gas really quick…hahhaha…fobia2

girlfriend???…..hahhahaha….nope…no girlfriend….but i seeing a few girls in 2007….not serius kawan2 je….most of them want kawan je….sukati la…tak  kesah…i dont mind….dont want to put high hope on a girl…takut kecewa je….my previous girl???….hhhmmm…the last time i saw her was last mei i think…..i pick her up in sri hartamas from shah alam just to have dinner with her….we order our meals…then 3 minute later she said to me….nak bungkus…nak tgk prison break….i was so surprised….i didnt said anything just ok…..even the brother kat warung tu tanye lambat ke masak….i said no…ade hal skit….i drop her back to sri hartamas….i go straight back to shah alam with my tapau meal….then i stop seeing her….we smses a few times…but she just doesnt get it….i was tired from working…i want to see her…have a nice meal with her then ttb je nak tapau…reason nak tgk prison….she should tell me earlier….tak payah datang nak tgk prison break …..i will understand….but the thing was she told me when we just order our meal….i was ready to commit to her but she just not ready….bak kate org hati ni da tawar da…at that point i stop seeing her…

that all….2007 sum up everything that happen to me….waiting for june 2008….i will be back in melawati…with my parents…my friends….a new job (i hope)…till next time…….

muahahhahaha…just to tell that i think i wll update more often my blog lah…seem everyone telling me what happen to my blog why so quiet ….i told them i so bz…ye la working full time and part time studying….so hard…i think i going to crack just in few months….but well i have to be ready mentally…cause my good friend deris and kuti aka baidzurah aka faisyura are getting married….muahahahahha….aku jadi pengapit….muahahahha….mentally ready yup….my close cousin Amboy aka Razlan also getting married….wawaawawawa….why u all getting hitch i still here searching for mrs azren hassan….well i guess the time will came….my studying also good….top of the class….muahahhahhaha very unexpected from a boy who once upon a time ago was a lazy git….but still i did my assignment last minute….still a lazy git….work…hmmm..right now i veru unsatisfied with my work here….why…because of the bosses….yup very unhappy with them….my mom was right ur boss is still ur boss not ur friend….i treat one of them like a friend and he fire me back the thing i didnt do….ok la here the story….one of the boss used to be part time student…one day dia kelam kabut la….thesis have to submit within a week a two….he told me azren here is the drawing, lcp (report) and also the form that he been fill up himself….he asked me to do the submittion….just the submission so i did it la…still can not submit because of one two problems so i solve the problems and the project submitted to MPKj….but the reports were wrong the owner called me…so i asked the boss why how come the report were wrong…then he scolded me said that i should check the reports the drawings everything…yeah i told him i check but check only for the submittion if the submittion requested only 5 reports so i make sure the reports that i submitt is 5 not to check what inside the report….i didnt write the report he did….i didnt draw the plan he did but he put the blame on me….hhhmmm….well fuck him….with the low salary they gave to me….i been doing all projects in this damn company….i even back him up when the client look for him…i even attended meeting the bosses sould go….i even have discussion with client alone in the meeting room when the three bosses inside the office buat tak tau je….but the client ok le chinese guy he said to me "kalau u mau g dangdut ka apa ka u give me a call la"…..mahahahhaha….i still have to do everything in this office….go and collect check….go and see client get signature client go to tesco beli barang2 opis…..well i have to be patient just 1 year and a half…i finish my studying and get the hell out of this company….tension tension la juga…but nak idop tak kan nak arap mak abah tanggung kt kan….so that life….what i really want is….when i have a bad day in the office….and tiring 4 hours from 6pm - 10pm attending lecture….i just want and have dinner with the one i love and looking forward to see….the one who when i see her all my problems just went away …. the one who can calm me down, make me laugh, and listen to me for awhile….the one who understand what i’m going thru….the one who love me for who i am….that what i really want….the one….

this is my fist entry for 2006, i think la…yes yes…my first….so here is the update….i am in second semester of my PLK (Pengajian Luar Kampus) course…my first sem was very unexpected….getting 3 pointer and above….wooowww…that not me….but alhamdullilah…this pointer is for my parents….but i’m getting very lazy every single day…dont know why…. so how work??…my work getting bz and bz everyday…but still project is slow…the company still being kedekut….semua drawing aku buat….i even became the full receptionist there….hello citiplan…bla bla…getting closer with the bosses….sometimes getting bored with bong…same old stories everyday….getting sick of his stupid not thinking first joke….btw…i hit his car with my waja…hahah…damn stupid me….i saw him flying….hahah…i was so panicked i dont know what to do…but in my mind deris..mesti cari deris…hahaha…i wasted my rm1000++… to repair my car and bong’s car….what a wasted money…should have avoid the accident…stupid me…now i getting closer with rahman my plk couse…i like him…his experince in life is a joy to hear….then hear this…my brother getting marry…at last….this sunday…cant wait for that…saturday nikah ahad at my house…jemput le sapa yang nak datang….deris and baid are engaged…hhahahah..good for them…happy for them…baid tak de hala tuju sekarang berhala tuju….hope many happiness for them….ooo ye…aku jd pengapit deris nanti…hahaha…cant wait for that too….farid pun dah kahwin….amboy my cousin is getting marry this august….wawawawwa….everyone is getting marry and i still studying….hhhmmmm…that’s life….but i found my girl….my new honey…my new girl….i hope she is the one…i think she is the one…i knew her long long time ago…while i was at UIA matrik ..the same studio as me…i did notice her but i was blind….now i dont want to lose her….i dont want to be blind…hope she feel the same as i do…to u siti…i know that Hanya Satu is our song….but here other song by Nora that i think have the same meaning to it….hope we could be together…long lasting together…..

Menyemai Cinta Bersamamu - Nora

Sedingin bayu yang menyusuri
Mengabar rindu di naluri
Membisik sayu
Di nadi wajah kasih ku oh

Meresap redup di kamar kekasih
Lalu kau menaburi bebunga cinta berseri

Sentuhan mu yang pertama
Kini menjadi igauan di dalam jiwa
Wajah mu kasih kini menjelma
Seindah pelangi yang menyuluh di wajah mu
Terbuka jua mahligai di hati ku kini
Menyemai cinta bersama mu

Merisik-risik bicara ku
Menyeru kasih pada diri mu
Sering mengusik dalam rindu
Yang berputik oh
Meresap redup di kamar kekasih
Lalu kau menaburi
Bebunga cinta berseri

Di wajah mu kasih
Ku impikan di hatiku menyulam kerinduan
Kau hulurkan cinta yang suci
Ku warnakan kasih yang seindah pelangi
Yang menyuluh di wajah mu
Terbuka jua mahligai di hati ku kini
Menyemai cinta bersama… mu

This song is for Naresa…..yup still about her….the girl that i thought i finally found the one….but well she not….but still i misses her….

Kerna Sayang - VE

Dari tadi kau berlari
ku fikirkan.. hanya engkau yg ku idamkan
tak pernah pula kau bercerita.. siang mlm kau menderita
jangan dibiarkan perasaan menawar hati
jangan dibiarkan semuanya berlalu pergi

aku di sini
ku tetap berdiri
ku mengundang kasih
pergi sendiri
ku takkan kembali
agar kita kan bersama

jgn pulangkan kerinduan
tiap kali kau berjauhan
tidak mudah ku melupakan.. kerna sayang
kali pertama di pandangan
buat ku terbang di awangan
jangan pulangkan kerinduan.. kerna sayang

engkau memungkiri janji.. bukan aku
engkau yg melupakannya.. bukan aku
hanya aku yg impikan.. agar kita berbahagia hingga ke anak cucu
tapi itu semuanya kenangan.. yg tinggal hanya perasaan
dlm doaku hanya ingin selalu di samping mu.. oh pulanglah

aku di sini
ku tetap berdiri
ku mengundang kasih
pergi sendiri
ku takkan kembali
agar kita kan bersama

jgn pulangkan kerinduan
tiap kali kau berjauhan
tidak mudah ku melupakan.. kerna sayang
kali pertama di pandangan
buat ku terbang di awangan
jangan pulangkan kerinduan.. kerna sayang setiap kali ku mengenangkan mu
siang..mlm.. ku doakan kebahagian mu
yg ku pinta hanyalah.. tulus hati mu..
ada kau balas kerinduan ku

Ku Harap - NowSeeHeart

Kuharap kau cuba memahami
Luahan hati ini
Yang ingin dicintai

Kuharap kau dapat menghayati
Sentuhan jiwa ini
Yang ingin disayangi

Tiada balasan
Yang ada hanyalah alasan
Tiada jawapan
Yang ada hanyalah persoalan

Dimanakah kejujuran
Dimanakah ketulusan/ keihklasan
Dimanakah keikhlasan/ ketulusan
Dimanakan kejujuran/ keihklasan

Kerana Tuhan
Hanya mahukan
Kejujuran keikhlasan
cinta

yesterday was an unexpected day……i got a phone call from my mom around 3pm…tell me to go back home tonight after work to take care of my lil sister….because my uncle is very sick in Hospital Melaka….then 15 mins later…me lil sis called me…she said Pak Ndak dah meninggal…..so i was shivering….i pack up my bed i went straigth to UM to fetch my sister….arrived at Melawati around 430….my lil sis said my uncle wasnt dead yet but in life support….so we rush to melaka….arrived at the hospital 730….my farther go inside and see his brother…..afterward i went with my mom…..but we can not see him because the doctors are doing a minor surgery….around 9 pm many of mu cousins arrived from work…dont know what the story behind my uncle omitted to hospital…..then 10 o’clock the doctors perform cpr to mu uncle…..performing cpr in front of me…..my cousins all in tears…my farther also in tear….i could see his eyes….then i held back my tear…but can not….the doctor jump on top of him…on the bed…..performing cpr….i thought i only that they do it on telly….but in real life….then around 1115…after more than an hour of cpr….my father started to whisper dua khalimat shadat to his ear….and later the doctor pronouce his death…..we started to cried….i held back my tear trying to be calm but still can not……my father went to the counter to urus the jenazah….we went back to my grandma’s house….my mak long said my nenek already asleep but she doesnt know yet…mak long again and again said she lost his lil brother….my father non stop said to me is he a bad brother….after arrived in merlimau i went straight to a room and cried my heart out till i was asleep….morning around 915 we went to my uncle house to mandi and sembahyang mayat…..a last kiss good bye from me …again in tear….pengebumian was quick…..i still remember him and i was little….his was a driver bus when he was in KL…..i remember him washing the bus and give an advive….’study hard dont end up like me washing bus and drive a bus, be like ur father’…from that i knew he was proud of my father….so to all my friends….sedekah kan al-fatihah and semoga arwah bersama dengan orang2 yg beriman dan dicurahi rahmat….amin

Last friday a public holiday for people in Selangor so i went to watch a movie….a movie about my fav. game….football…highly rated movie…so i dont want miss this…. my fav player…zidane star in it….a must watch movie…who i went with???….no one….i went alone….i been alone for awhile … i have watched movie alone before this…so it doesnt bother me at all…but still…. i miss the feeling being a couple ….here the review for this movies

GOAL!

Santiago Muñez is spotted by an ex scout for Newcastle United. He is able to get him a trial for Newcastle. From then it’s up to Santiago to prove himself out on the field.

A movie which starts pretty good, but the further u get in this movie, the more predictable it gets. The shots from the pitch are really impressive though but I think they should have done more on the story line. They show u a piece of his emotion and then they take it away again and as u will notice there are some elements in the movie which I believe can not happen in the business. Also the players in the movie are obviously not football players themselves. Mixed shots with Alan Shearer walking on the field one second, the other second he’s off and later on he is back on the field.

But yet again, if you skip all that, you can just sit back, relax and enjoy a nice game of football, stadiums full of people, rain all day (England, what else could it be) and a bar full of drunk Newcastle supporters in which everyone seems to end up

Sheila On 7 - Berhenti Berharap

aku tak percaya lagi akan apa yg kau beri

aku terdampar disini tersudut menunggu mati

aku tak percaya lagi akan guna matahari

yg dulu mampu terangi sudut gelap hati ini

aku berhenti berharap dan menunggu datang gelap s

ampai nanti suatu saat tak ada cinta kudapat

mengapa ada derita bila bahagia tercipta

mengapa ada sang hitam bila putih menyenangkan…

aku pulaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang tanpa dendaaaaaaaaam kuterimaaaaaaaaa kekalahankuuuuuuuu aku pulaaaaaaaaaaang tanpa dendaaaaaaaaaaaam kusalutkannnnnnn kemenanganmu

kau ajarkan aku bahagia

kau ajarakan aku derita

kau tunjukan aku bahagia

kau tunjukan aku derita

kau berikan aku bahagia

kau berikan aku derita….

this song sum up what i felt right now…..

Temani Aku by Sheila on 7

Layaknya gelap malam

Yang indah karna bintang

Layaknya sang penyair

Yang elok karna puisi

Bagiku kau bintang

Selayaknya puisi

Tetaplah di sini peri kecilku

Bagiku kau bintang

Selayaknya puisi

Temani aku selamanya

Selamanya… Selamanya… selamanya…

Selamanya… selamanya…

Selamanya… selamanya…

Selamanya…

This is simple song from Sheila on 7 but for me it’s so meaning full….the lyric is light yet again it’s so deep…the reason why i put this song on my blog is because i would like to dedicate this simple yet deep song to NARESA….yup to her…my one and only girl….this for you….just want to say to u ….temani ku selamanya….selamanya….